...after 1 hour.. i have achieved nothing on the computer.
except perhaps receiving updates on other's lives, and reading some stupid chain letters which are of no use to my life.

its amazing how weak my mind can be.
why is it that im afraid of being in the dark alone? its just the lack of light, and sight. why is it i close my eyes when i watch horror movies? its just some idiot wearing powder and a fake long wig, in the screaming background. why do i get irritated over a lagging computer? i cant do anything about it, dont expect me to smash it. why do i cry when i lose my things? i cant do anything about it, except try to find it. why do i procrastinate even when i promise myself that i will not? why do i feel disgusted when i think about insects, see close up photos of insects? im bigger than the insect, it ought to be scared of me, not the other way round.

perhaps its not the weakness of the mind, but instead the power of the mind.
of course, having such a weak mind, i still cant get over being alone in the dark, etctetc. its always to easier to say than to do you know.

oh im just rubbishing again. goodbye.