sometimes i feel scared to move forward.. if only i could just stay on in my current somewhat comfortable position.

what to do for end of year program?
i thought the work experience program was fun although i dont know why the hell i want to work. like i dont even get any money. and for all those skills that i learn.. yeah sure the wep will impact me and my future working life. but it still seems fun! ..

triple quizzes tmr. bleah.
chem spa today was .. shant say anything.

welllllllllll tests are starting in week 4 *dreads*. screw la.
also dread this friday.><

lala.

[ ] You like to eat chicken feet.
[ ] You sing karaoke.
[x] You’ve worn glasses ever since you were in fifth grade.(primary 3? yep)
[ ] You’ll haggle over something that is not negotiable.
[ ] You are a math genius. (this one ah, no need to ponder one.)Total:3
[x] You sometimes take showers at night.
[x] You avoid the non-free snacks in hotel rooms.
[x] You say “aiyah” and “wah” frequently.
[x] You save grocery bags.
[x] You twirl your pen around yourfingers.
Total:6
[x] You have been taught that wasting food is a sin.
[x] Your dad thinks he can fix everything himself. (LOL so true..)
[ ] You beat eggs with chopsticks.
[x] You like congee with thousand-year- old eggs.(i like congee with century eggs. hundred year old eggs. not millenia eggs.)
[x] You have eaten moon cakes before.
Total: 10
[x] If you don’t live at home, when your parents call, they ask you if you’ve eaten, even if it’s midnight.
[x] You email/msn your Chinese friends, even though you’re only 10 feet apart.
[x]You can read traditional chinese
[x] Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin before they are thrown away.
[x] You know what pearl milk teas are.
Total: 15
[ ] You bring fruit with you as a gift when you visit people’s homes.
[ ] You have acquired a taste for bitter melon.
[ ] You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don’t eat the last piece of food on the table.
[ ] Your parents argue with other adults over the dinner bill.
[x] You love to use coupons.
Total:16

16 x 4 = 64% chinese
=.=
this is called STEREOTYPING. (like being a math genius = chinese, like those mathematicians were chinese la) maybe this test should be "how singaporean chinese are you?" instead of "how chinese are you?"

lala bye.(:
good luck to myself. for tmr. and friday.


I am(was?) so focussed today!
yay i completed a few things. except i havent done my LA SIA email thingo. later than i shall do. (:
okay now im taking a break. a teeny weeny little break.

5 down, 6 to go. how many more days before all our guppies die?
from the death rates, i conclude that males have shorter life spans. because 2 out of 2 male fish died(1/1), while 3 out of 9 female fish died(1/3). LOL. or maybe the females all gang up to kill and deprive the male fish of food. i realise all our pretty guppies are males(in which one died on the second day we got it, and the other, today).

today jiawen typed "jiawen rocks" into google, and guess what, my blog came in as the first entry! lol. =.=
my notebook is full of smileys.

"UGLY is the new beautiful". true?


ARGH I AM SO IRRITATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


{im slacking again}
whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy.
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i read about this emo fashion thing in the straits times yesterday or some other day.
my chem spa is screwed la! aiyarr dunno how howhowhowhowhowhow. ):
):):):):):):):
how.
finished watching "the village" abit lame..

its raining..
im having brain block..
what nice weather for sleep..
guzheng concert on sat.. and my dad has to go KL/JB on that day! i have to take bus home. so pathetic..):
but my mum is nice..


ARGH I HAVENT FINISHED BIO!{not to mention chem and physics}
bye


why am i so stupidstupidstupidstupidstupid??
to think i thought that everything will turn out fine, let nature takes its course.
i seem to forget that life is no fairytale.
theres no happy ending unless you work very very hard for it.
theres no free lunch in this realistic world.


...after 1 hour.. i have achieved nothing on the computer.
except perhaps receiving updates on other's lives, and reading some stupid chain letters which are of no use to my life.

its amazing how weak my mind can be.
why is it that im afraid of being in the dark alone? its just the lack of light, and sight. why is it i close my eyes when i watch horror movies? its just some idiot wearing powder and a fake long wig, in the screaming background. why do i get irritated over a lagging computer? i cant do anything about it, dont expect me to smash it. why do i cry when i lose my things? i cant do anything about it, except try to find it. why do i procrastinate even when i promise myself that i will not? why do i feel disgusted when i think about insects, see close up photos of insects? im bigger than the insect, it ought to be scared of me, not the other way round.

perhaps its not the weakness of the mind, but instead the power of the mind.
of course, having such a weak mind, i still cant get over being alone in the dark, etctetc. its always to easier to say than to do you know.

oh im just rubbishing again. goodbye.


i woke up at 10 today! this is not really late but i usually wake up at 9 plus! i think im getting more piggish. so is my brother. haha "oh my gosh its already 10 o' clock im a pig!"
hmm had flag day yesterday. blahblah quite tiring but at least have people who donated because me and hui min stationed ourselves outside the mrt station, wating to ambush people. some people were quite nice.. like asking us whether we had umbrellas (when it was going to rain, which didnt happen), and why we were standing in the hot sun. ehh but then there are those really dao people who totally ignore us! so rude can..
erm i just realised there was phantom of the opera today! argh anyway my family was watching the ren ci charity show.. i was filing my things! haha so proud of my newly organised thinthin file..
... i just memorised my su2 yu3.. lol! abit late i know.. but at least i read it on friday okay.
haha okay bye ;)


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
why isnt anyone online!? im rotting here??!!
):
anyone wanna take lunch with me tmr?
boredbutidontwannareadnordohomework.


oh yeah finished my essay! yay
i think almost everything is done/halfdone. eh except my chinese file. nvm not so difficult to do.

had LA SIA today finished much earlier than i expected. have choir workshop tmr!! do well, man.

yay byebye have to take dinner and also read my 石膏与我!




halfway thru....................................


ARGH the holiday homework is the pits!


plain boredbored and i hate to procrastinate but i cant help it ><
still have alot homework left over and and i havent done nyaa yet. ):):):):





"If you were a booger I'd pick you first." what a pick up line


ignore this if you hate quizzes
1. Song playing at the moment?
* none but i was just listening to sway by michael buble.
2. Reasons for living?
* for the happy times.
3. Do you think you’re ok?
* erm yes i hope so.
4. Ever donated blood?
* nope but maybe in the future
5. Favorite color(s)?
* pink. hawt pink? or maybe light pink. but i like nice shades of brown too.
6. Accessories you usually wear?
* specs?
7. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past?
* eh this is not really applicable to me..
8. Last place you went to?
* eh toilet? or maybe school.
9. Last person you went out with?
* erm my family
10. The most exciting sport?
* i don't know.. nothing seems really exciting maybe except diving which i never tried before.
11. Ever had a baby?
* oh yeah sure..
12. Movie you want to watch?
* none as yet.
13. Any piercings?
* nope.
14. The most romantic gift?
* erm roses? haha i don't know.
15. Act on stage before?
* yes.
16. Struck by lightning before?
* do dogs meow?
17. Danced with your loved ones before?
* erm no i dont dance.
18. Ever wished you could turn back time?
* yesyesyesyesyesyesyes. i want to get back to primary school.
19. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be with someone from the opposite sex?
* eh i know people who share bedrooms with their brothers. =.=
20. One song that’s meaningful to you?
* emotionless.
21. Missing whoever now?
* i miss 2/11'06.
22. What will you be doing tomorrow?
* cca then chinese + cme project )):
23. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
* yes when i was young
24. One thing you totally regret doing/done?
* not working hard for my chinese.
25. Do people like you?
* certain people do i hope.
26. What was the last game you played on the computer?
* erm maplestory i think. so long ago.
27. Someone who means a lot to you at the moment?
* family and friends.
28.The color of your bed?
* pink right now.
29. Do you hate someone at the moment?
* no hating is tiring.
30. What do you wish to happen now?
* erm march holidays is extended! no more SIAs. (i wish) and perhaps to wake up and realise everything is a dream and im really still 6 years old.
31. Last time you ate pizza?
* saturday.
32. Ever been given a ring?
* no except maybe my friend who split the cost of a mood ring with me.
33. Do people think you’re weird?
* i don't know really.
34. Movies now showing that you hate?
* none.
35. Most important thing in your room?
* my bed.
36. Last movie watched?
* i don't know. ):
37. Last television show watched?
* erm central affairs at 7pm.
38. Who is the person you want to see right now?
* my friends?
39. Ever called a person useless?
* no i think its really mean to say so because it really bashes a person's self esteem.
40. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
* yes

ONE- what you wearing now: hello kitty pyjamas.
TWO- where you going later: to bed.
THREE- who you missing at the moment: 2/11 friends.
FOUR- what you stress about this days: practically everything related to school.
FIVE- whose the last person you chat with: my brother.
SIX- what makes you happy when you’re down: my brother's retarded antics.
SEVEN- do you wanna get into a r/s now: i dont know what a r/s is and i dont really care anyway.
EIGHT- have you got a crush on someone: no
NINE- ever have a near death experience: no no
TEN- whats the time now: 21:47
ELEVEN- met anyone earlier on:yes my family and my cca mates.
TWELVE- what did you do just now: took a breath
THIRTEEN- whats your favourite show: i hardly watch tv.
FOURTEEN- what language do you speak: english and chinese.
FIFTEEN- what you hate: insects and oily things.
SIXTEEN- do you like to watch MTV: no i dont watch it.
SEVENTEEN- what annoys you :many things esp irritating undone homework and SIAs.
EIGHTEEN- where are you living at: a sunny isle named singapore.
NINETEEN- when did anyone last ask for ur number: erm maybe first day of school in 302 where people exchanged numbers.
TWENTY- whats your favourite pet: no pet except a fish and a cactus.
TWENTYONE- wheres the place you wanna go now: anywhere away from school.
TWENTYTWO- do you like sweet talks: sweet talks may be useful at times..
TWENTYTHREE- would you mind your girlfriend whose a gangster: yes probably although this sounds quite judgemental.
TWENTYFOUR- would you mind your girlfriend’s body’s full of tattoo: yes. TWENTYFIVE- whats your real name: my name is adeline.
TWENTYSIX- whats your favourite month: december because its end of school
TWENTYSEVEN- have you ever been stung by a bee: no i hope not in the future too.
TWENTYEIGHT- will you post bulletin as when you like: ?
TWENTYNINE- whose the last person you hug: cant remember =.=
THIRTY- whose the last person you said ‘iloveyou’ to: i dont say that.


i miss 211'06 ):


im back from obs in one piece! after two days of rest.. im back on my feet again wahaha.
i think obs made me stupid.. i cant believe i forgot the name of group 12! which is columbus (thx to jiawen's blog). well anyway my group was called RALEIGH. but i never did bother to read about this person so i really don't know his ( i assume) achievements. erm had to trek for 9.5 km (we calculated) with a 10-15kg backpack?? i dont know how i actually survived.. well anyway i know that i can do it if i want to haha! too bad we didnt get to kayak much only did it for 3 hours? by now my shoulder has already recovered yay. after two days of rest. and i had a really lame + qian4 bian3 instructor named LUM =.= couldnt really stand his constant lamo jokes esp during the tiring trek.

btw. my spectacles broke last night! oh myy now im wearing my old black glasses with dozens of scratches on it. oh well i just need it for near work anyway. rah cant wait to get my specs back! choir workshop ytd was quite dead and i felt quite tired. im consolidating my homework now.. quite a list man! but i can do it if i want to ! haha.

i love my bed and home and computer and pillow! (:


physics.is.so.confusing.and.exhausting.





OBS on monday! my bag is filled to the brim and i mean it.


"good morning mdm/sir, would you like to donate?"
flag day on 17th of march and i think im one of the few which havent actually done this before. but hopefully it will be fun
OBS is on 5th! im feeling more excited now. but then still have physics homework :( anyway i hope i don't burn.

school is getting more tiring. thank goodness its friday now, officially last working school day of term 1. but choir still continues. have to read 石膏与我 during the march hols, sure hope i can finish!

Ehh think I had better stop here, i still have work to do.


oh dear.
i haven't done much revision for IH as of yet.
after IH test i'll be free!
hmm actually no.. plenty of SIAs and homework to complete (ie physics and LA proposal) and must do reading oh man. oh man. oh man. how am i to finish?
nvm i shall persevere.

aiyah why is IH so sickening. i miss history and geog